Courtney's Week #41

Today we just got the news that we can go to the temple! The area presidency of Chile made a rule pretty much right before I got here that the missionaries could only go to the temple just before they go home with the reasoning that, "missionaries are here to do work for the living, not the dead." But, we were just informed that the rule changed and now we can go once a year! Woot woot! I am pretty excited about that, the temple has a way to give you power and I am so excited to rejuvenate my spiritual power!

 

So the past couple weeks I have been slacking a little bit, just with little things. For example: instead of popping out of my bed at 7:30, saying a quick little prayer, and hurrying over to my exercises like a good missionary, when the alarm goes off in the morning I sit there for a second, curl up in a ball to say a very long prayer that is more like a nap, then I mosie on over to wiggle my toes as my exercises. And then because my companion has the same mosying problem, usually we are not quite ready to start studies right at 9:00 and I usually get there at like 9:08 or something like that. Just little things that I have been slacking with. So the other day I was saying my prayers and I started asking for all of the help that I needed for our investigators and everything, and I felt so guilty. I realized that with all of my slackingness I felt unworthy to ask for help because I wasn´t doing my part.

 

I have been studying a lot about obedience and keeping the commandments and everything for my investigators and the key thing is that we have to do our part. God wants to bless us, because he loves us, but he can´t do it if we are not doing our part. We have to do everything that we can do and that we have the right to ask for blessings, but before that point we are unworthy to receive his help.

 

Anyways so this is my resolution this week, and I will let you know how it goes, the thing is, really missionaries are just regular people without the help of God, but being a regular person is not enough for a missionary. We need to be instruments in God´s hands. So that is my new goal.

 

Well, my computer was a little bit silly today, so I am out of time, but I love you all and I will write to you all again next week!

 

Love you!

Hermana Evans